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I'm watching WONTAK'S ANGEL now. I miss that show.
Anyway, I haven't been blogging for ages. To be frank, I don't think I've touched this computer since Wednesday. I'm pissed off with the virus and I really can't be bothered. I'm working my ass off completing EXCO presents and I have to study at the same time.
So yesterday, I went to library@esplanade to study with
BRENDA BOO, Kaiwei and Atiqa. ROFL. Atiqa was supposed to help me with my algebra but she came too late, cos my head was already spinning. I tell you, nothing kills my brain like algebra. We didn't really get much studying done, but I DID manage to figure out some algebra shit, thanks to Atiqa. We had Sec-4-Meet-The-Parents ushering before that and I saw SHARK. Haha. Ok. Uhm. Yeah.
I've been blowing hot and cold nowadays. I think I'm just zapped cos I'm trying my best to be nice to EVERYONE but no one pretty much appreciates it. It could also be due to the fact that its APRIL. I'm never much stable in APRIL. I hate this month. Sucks. I swear it does. SUCKS. I'm feeling things I've never felt before, and its driving me nuts. I don't like loving someone this much. :\ I don't like waking up in the middle of the night crying because I dreamt that SOMEONE died. I don't like feeling insanely HAPPY just cos SOMEONE communicated with me. I'm such a loser.
Abang, I hope you're well. Last week, we went to the graveyard, and we cleaned your grave. It was amazing. I realised there's many things I've never said, but I said it all that day. What I wished for, I really hope you'll make it come true. I miss you. I know I always say this, every year, but I do. Every year, in April, I'll do something insanely CRAZY because I can't control my emotions and I don't ever blame you. Its the month I gain or lose something. I have no idea what to say anymore. I know you're watching over me and you'll always be there for me but sometimes I just need to SEE you there. I can feel your presence but I can't see you. Sometimes I do. Its just not enough. Call me greedy, but this whole shit is unfair. You should never have left. If there was someone, it should have been me. Look at me now. I'm this loser. I don't do anything right and I'm all messed up. God. THIS is messed up.
HIT THAT CHORD @ 7:10 PM
